Wednesday, August 1, 2012

The decisiion, part four

Although she was sure she had at some point during the night she had fallen asleep, Leta felt weary when she rose early. A steady rain had fallen through the night, but the clouds cleared to allow the sun to sweeten the morning. Leta grunted as she climbed out of bed, then dragged herself toward the bathroom. She had felt this achy and tired before—after one of her all-night escapades when she was a much younger woman. But this was different. She realized that when she caught a glimpse of herself in the mirror. Her gray hair, the wrinkles, the slouch, the circles under her eyes and the drawn lips reminded her that she was old.  For a moment, she wished that she did not recognize herself, but she knew herself enough to realize that she was 78 and old.

She dressed and tidied herself, had coffee and toast and took a short walk in her neighborhood. Her hair was still disastrous, so she wore a headscarf. By this time, her neighbors were stirring. The earliest workers were getting in their cars. One of them waved as he drove away. A retired gentleman who lived down the block was fussing with his prize roses which had been beaten slightly by the night’s rain. He nodded as Leta walked by.  Several front drapes and windows flew open as she passed. Everyone wanted to welcome the cool morning air before the heat of the summer day burned in. A half an hour later, as she returned to her own apartment, small groups of young children were playing around their homes, their voices gurgling like brooks. Most of them basically ignored her, but on occasion one would take a hard look at her, which she didn’t acknowledge.

Her life was changing, and she needed to accept that.

It was Friday, and she knew Vivian’s routine. First, she would get up and put the coffee on, fix breakfast for herself and her husband, get him off to work and then clean up the kitchen, make the bed and tidy the bedroom. Once she finished, she would dress herself, finish her shopping list and then head out to get her hair done and go to the supermarket, bank, drug store and any other errands she needed to run. This was the first Friday of the month, so Vivian and Ed would have their card club in the evening. If Vivian was hosting, she would need to clean the basement recreation room and prepare the group’s snacks. Her grandchildren, being out of school for the summer and living only four blocks away, might appear in the afternoon for a visit and a snack. Even though she was busy, Vivian would spend thirty minutes to an hour with them before shooing them back home.

Vivian’s busy day gave Leta only a brief window to telephone and share her decision. She would accept the offer to move into the Methodist senior residence, even though it was farther away from her family, and prepare herself for the move and subsequent alteration of her life.

However, Vivian telephoned her instead.

“Good morning, Ma.”

“Vivian? I was going to call you this morning,” Leta said.

“Is everything all right?” Vivian asked.

“I’m fine,” Leta answered. “I didn’t sleep well, but I’m fine.”

“Well, I have some news that should help you sleep better,” Vivian said. “Mrs. Darling from Little Sisters just called me. A place has opened up, and she offered it to you, if you’d like it.”

Leta felt a rush of warmth through her body, like a first caress. It filled her with energy and eagerness. Nothing else mattered but this, and she took a moment to enjoy it before responding. She had not realized how much she wanted to move into the Roman Catholic location, only minutes from Vivian and her family, until that moment.

“Ma?”

“Yes, darling,” Leta said. “Yes, please call her back and tell her we accept.”

On July 15, 1972, Leta Eckman moved into the Sacred Heart Home for the Aged, where she would live for the next twelve years.

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